HEY
I just wanna say thank you for the people who stayed by my side for the past years of my life. Who celebrated and invited me always for a table of any kind of grace. You are all part of my development and for still continuing to be a vibe for me, it’s a trend that never fades for me and I cheer you also with that. In an environment that lack of cheerleaders I mean it, that you are all angels that shouts and screaming tones of living life as how it should be. I may outgrow some of you but your time and our moments together will never leave my soul. I think a better understanding towards relationships is more important to me now. That if I find you as toxic as crap then you’re out. I’d be living the best cutting you out no matter who you are and how long you are enjoying my story. You’re out. I am on my way of cleansing the things that reflect my inner peace. I won’t feel sorry for letting you pass my life now because yes I’ve been killing myself all this time that you insulted and degraded me in a way that you didn’t even notice. I figured out that I have to come forward and just let you be who you are and still be happy for you but I’m out. I’m done. I won’t let you have my story again be laughed at about and used awful things to describe me as how you want it. One thing I’ve learned is that no matter how good you treated some people they will always, always see that little sh’ over that goodness you want them to feel. Note this, that some closest people in your life aren’t happy on your winnings, that behind those loudest crazy laughs together are the mask that say’s “oh sh’ you won’t ever gonna make it”. The thing is people in our lives also expire and this time you expired first. Boundaries matters, lesson added.
I think a lot of people never really read between the lines that when you do good to people, good things will come to you too. When you want to see everyone’s winning, life will celebrate with you too. And when you do the opposite things to me, maybe there’s nothing wrong with me. Pray for yourself more because I won’t do it no more. I guess these kinds of people won’t ever get the feeling, the pain and the damage because all they wanna see is only their own versions. Their losses, their own pain, their own experiences and others but will never put their feet to someone else’s shoes just to even touch the line beyond them. I hate it when I have to ignore, to pretend like nothing’s hurt, and to adjust because I have to realign what I’ve to take out of the picture. I was never perfect and you all know my flaws, but I am just simply asking for a kinder you. Not just for me but for everyone also that never speaks out just because they don’t want to break the bond. This is also for everybody who simply chose to walk away because they appreciate you more than the pain you caused to them. Emotional damage is everything. You can’t see it coming until something changes in you. You wake up one day and little things hits you like huge wave of difference. It’s real and we encounter it every day and just normalizing it. Please dont.
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